"I met this girl about a year ago. We started going out about a couple weeks after I met her. We went out for a year and in that year our relationship was nothing but happiness. I made a big mistake one day and we broke up. About a week after we broke up, I felt really bad and I felt like I lost the only thing I had in my life. We got back together about a month after I broke up with her.

The second day we got back together, I noticed that she was acting really weird it was like she didn't care about ANYTHING. I asked her if she was doing any drugs or if she was having family problems or anything like that over and over again.........but she just kept saying no. That went on for about a week and then one day I asked her and i told her this is gonna be the last time I'll ask you this. "Are you doing any drugs??" And she started crying and told me that she was doing coke. I understood i wasn't mad at her or anything. I just told her to stop and she said ok. But she couldn't she would call me everyday and told me that she couldn't help it and she had did coke. That went on for about 2 weeks and then i broke it off again. We have been on and off since then for about 3 months now.

I think she has finally stopped and i am so happy for that. But coke has fucked up our relationship so bad she doesn't care about anything anymore, I'm hoping we can work this out. But about a week ago i decided to show her what she is doing to me and i bought 2 grams of coke. I did it on a friday at about 10:00 pm. I was up all night and the next day snorting a line an hour for about 18 hours. At about 8pm that night i started to crash. It seriously didn't last that long but it was so intense i could not stand it.......I was actually licking my mirror,razor blade,bag, and finding little pieces of coke to eat. All I can think about is finding a way to get more money for more coke. This drug is so fun, but stay away from it, it won't just ruin your life it will ruin everybody's who loves you and cares about you."


Anon.
5th March 2001