"New years eve on E. There were 6 of us just hanging out at my friends house who's parents were gone for the whole night, there were 3 girls who were 15 (one being me) and 3 guys one 17 one 16 and one 15. Everyone promised each other we were going to have the best New Years and it would be unforgettable.
Well this was definitely an unforgettable experience. I had done it once before and all I took was half a pill, I barely felt it so I thought I would be able to handle a full pill. So New Years was going to be the perfect chance to do it and have a great time. I started with my half and then within the next few minutes I took a little more and then a little more. Me and the girls had a party to stop by just to say hi and were only going to stay for 15 minutes. So the boys dropped us off and went back to the house, when we got to the party we were treated like shit and it pissed me off. It turned out that when the guys got home, they were locked out of the house, so they had no choice but to come back and get us so we could find a way in the house.
It was a good thing because the second we got in the car I started feeling it but it was not a good feeling. I got this sudden feeling of nausea and couldn't see straight. It was pouring rain outside and I was freezing. I walked up to the front door to sit and wait for them to get inside, and I suddenly collapsed and everything went blurry. One of the guys "cody" who was 16 walked past me and threw his jacket on me and said "don't move just lay there and don't do anything, you will be ok" When they finally got in the house, Cody came out and helped me in, he set me on the couch and sat with me. At this time I was out of it, from my point of view I couldn't decide whether I was cold or hot, where I was or what was happening to me. I started to run a fever and wanted to go to sleep but was "too scared" to. I have had bad experiences with my Dad in the past and also a very bad couple years with a girl who traumatized me with the way she treated me in the past. I kept bringing up those two things, crying and screaming as loud as I could. My brain was sizzling and I couldn't feel my legs.I was positive that I was going to die. I had never felt this way in my life and I was so scared. I sat there tripping out for a good 8 hours with Cody by my side, the whole time with the exception of going to take one of the girls home, that's when Jarrett came in and sat with me. I could only have one person in the room at a time or I would loose it even worse. A couple days before I went out to eat with the oldest guy Brian and his friend. This friend was very touchy and it really bothered me a lot. I started to calm down after about 4 hours and he came by the house that night and when he walked in I freaked out and it was even worse, he had to crawl out the door so I wouldn't see him when he left.
I remember it all so clearly, all the feelings and sounds and the people that were there by my side that whole night. I now feel a lot closer to the people that were there that night and I am drawn to them. When I sat there talking to Cody I let out all of my secrets that I wouldn't normally tell anyone. They tried giving me water but I refused to eat or drink anything. At about 3 or 4 in the morning I was calming down and getting back to normal. I tried to get up and walk around but I still could barely feel my legs. I went to sleep and the next morning went home and tried being myself around my parents, which was a very hard thing to do. Within the next few days the same people that were there checked on my constantly, and at school had to practically babysit me. I was saying the most bazaar things that didn't make any since at all. I was very emotional and if anyone other then the people that were there brought it up at all I would start to cry and just couldn't handle it at all. Those first few weeks at school were very hard and confusing. I wish I would have been a little more smarter when I did it. I scared a lot of people that night including myself. I was lucky to be where I was and who I was with.
Before I did this I didn't know anything about the drug, what it had in it or the effects from it. I learned never to do anything without knowing everything about it, or how to take it. If your going to do drugs make sure it is with people you trust and you know the effects and the bad turnouts from it~"
Anon. 11 March 2000
Editors Note: At first we thought these symptoms were very LSD-Bad Trip like. But following this up, this girl says the pill she took was a Buddha, which according to a web page publishing pill test results at the time, contained MDMA. However, it was possible there were other contaminants, and in conjunction with her psychological sensitivity, could have led to this situation.
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